I finally finished another painting. This one was for J. He asked me months ago to make him a "Kate Original", and I finally did. It's about 2 feet by 3 feet and it has about 5 layers in all. I started with a collage, then a wash, 3 layers of script with some squares. Of course it took that many layers for me to kind of like it. And I kind of do. I don't know if I ever immediately like anything I do. I'm not looking for sympathy points, I just don't know. I kind of pull away from what I've done, and think it's done. Attachment to work? Sometimes. But in this case, as in many others, I know where it's going, where it's going to be, I'll see it again.
I'd post some pictures, but I'm at home and my computer sucks. Whenever my internet becomes available on my home computer I'm surprised. So sooner or later you'll see it.
In other news, J and I made our way to the 9:30 Club last night. We went to see "The Black Keys". Jarle really wanted to go see them. If you really like two-person bands, you would really like them. I thought they were good. They have drums and a guitar. And then actually the guitarist sat down and played the organ, and it sounded like a guitar. The guitarist also sang (of course). He had a good voice (soulful). The drummer was amazing. But, a band can only do so much to keep from sounding too much like all those other 2-member bands. Hummm... But talented they are. The opening was a 3-member band, with no base. If you like revival 70's rock, you'd like them. Think Jack Black, but not as good. I'm not a huge fan of 70's rock, and the song that I liked best was called "Homegrown" (and so was everyone else's --- if you know what I mean). Which isn't saying much.
But I'm glad I skipped out on Radiohead. It was basically rained out, and I don't fancy seeing that band anymore. I'd rather just listen. I don't know who will be next on our list. There are always shows, but I'd rather wait until someone I like comes by. And, I'd actually like to see them! Last night I was surrounded by tall people!! All I could see was the band sign!
Today, I managed to call in sick. It was more of a mental health day, but I've really needed a break, and a chance to catch up. I'm glad I did. In the last few weeks at school we've all had to give up our classrooms and travel from unit to unit using carts and wheeling all of our supplies from day room to day room. Which isn't such a big deal for anyone, except me. I've not even been given a cart. I have to use a luggage carrier with a xerox box. I've managed to go too fast around corners and bumps and have dumped it 4 times. Not only that, but I can't use any of my valued technology that I have in my classroom, and classes are shorter because I have to unpack and pack things up in every single class!! It's not fair to the kids or to us. So I guess this was my boycott day. I suppose. I'm doing the best I can, but it's hard. We have way too many more days of school left, and I hope that we can change back to the classroom. It's completely necessary.
So, for all of you who continue to follow "LOST" the 4th season is almost over. I'm excited to see where we're going with all of this. All I can say is that this season has been good. I guess tomorrow is the start of the finale for the season.
In just over a week I'll be on the beach, and I couldn't be more excited about that. I'm already making lists of what to bring. Although, all that really matters are some bathing suits! Right? 2 more days of school in this week. 4 days next week, and 4 days the following week. I may actually make it through the school year.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Monday, May 12, 2008
Rain, rain...go away
Ugly, Monday, rain.
Wear your trendy wellies now,
Before it dries up.
That's all I can really manage for a haiku today. It is 5-7-5, right?
Short weekend. Friday made a really good dinner for J and I. It was really just glorified quesadillas (fancy cheese, sauteed vegetables, and homemade salsa). The precursor to dinner was a lovely home made cocktail I made from scratch. I had decided we needed something a bit different than the usual margarita, or Cosmo, or whatever. So I decided to make a ginger simple syrup.
Recipe: sugar, water, tons of ginger, and some lemon peel.
Et voila! It was so good. It's so easy to make. Has a little bite, a little sweetness, but strong! I think it was definitely what we needed after the long week we both had at work.
Saturday I actually didn't do much at all. Woke up late, J had to go grade papers with his teaching partner, and I putzed around doing nothing. It was wonderful. Sure I could have painted, gone to the gym, but why waste a perfectly stress free day? And keep it that way? I did end up meeting with J and his grading buddy at a nice Indian place about 1/2 hour away. We had a really nice dinner. I had Aloo ghobi (califlower, potato and pea curry). YUM! It was so tasty and rich. That evening, we just came back and watched parts of the Indiana Jones movies. "Raiders" is still the best one out of the 3, and I'm really worried that this fourth installment is going to be a bit of a clunker.
Sunday, up late, nice breakfast, bought books for the up coming beach trip (10 more days 'til Bahamas!)
Books:
What is the What
Water for Elephants
The Inheritance of Loss
I can't wait to actually sit on an island, surrounded by blue sky and white beaches, and quietly lapping water. Until then, I'll just have to soak up the rain, smile on the inside, and make it through the next week and 1/2.
Can you believe I still have 7 more weeks of work? I might die.
Wear your trendy wellies now,
Before it dries up.
That's all I can really manage for a haiku today. It is 5-7-5, right?
Short weekend. Friday made a really good dinner for J and I. It was really just glorified quesadillas (fancy cheese, sauteed vegetables, and homemade salsa). The precursor to dinner was a lovely home made cocktail I made from scratch. I had decided we needed something a bit different than the usual margarita, or Cosmo, or whatever. So I decided to make a ginger simple syrup.
Recipe: sugar, water, tons of ginger, and some lemon peel.
Et voila! It was so good. It's so easy to make. Has a little bite, a little sweetness, but strong! I think it was definitely what we needed after the long week we both had at work.
Saturday I actually didn't do much at all. Woke up late, J had to go grade papers with his teaching partner, and I putzed around doing nothing. It was wonderful. Sure I could have painted, gone to the gym, but why waste a perfectly stress free day? And keep it that way? I did end up meeting with J and his grading buddy at a nice Indian place about 1/2 hour away. We had a really nice dinner. I had Aloo ghobi (califlower, potato and pea curry). YUM! It was so tasty and rich. That evening, we just came back and watched parts of the Indiana Jones movies. "Raiders" is still the best one out of the 3, and I'm really worried that this fourth installment is going to be a bit of a clunker.
Sunday, up late, nice breakfast, bought books for the up coming beach trip (10 more days 'til Bahamas!)
Books:
What is the What
Water for Elephants
The Inheritance of Loss
I can't wait to actually sit on an island, surrounded by blue sky and white beaches, and quietly lapping water. Until then, I'll just have to soak up the rain, smile on the inside, and make it through the next week and 1/2.
Can you believe I still have 7 more weeks of work? I might die.
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Earthquake!
There actually WAS an earthquake in NOVA yesterday. It only measured a 1.8. But we felt it over here in the detention center. It was odd. There was a rumbling sound with it, and a little shake. Not quite like the other 2 I've experienced. In Germany, when I was a junior in high school there was a bigger one... I remember being awoken by what I thought was my little sister jumping on my bed. That was not what it was, and their were cracks left in all our doorways. It was odd, to say the least.
The other earthquake I experienced was a small on in Egypt. It shook a little bit, I felt it. It was strange, but I think I was more worried if our buildings could withstand any kind of shaking at all, or if they would just crumble immediately.
So, here's to natural disasters.... They're bound to get us at some point, if the world keeps going the way it does. Yes, I'm a little fatalistic these days. Food is going up, electricity is going up by 18% (that's what the news said, here in VA), Gas is $3.69 a gallon! What will we do? There's no way we can live like this. Things have to change. Every week the gas prices go up by 5 cents. It will be $5 by the end of the summer.
I need a job where I can walk or ride my bike.....At least I only fill my car tank up every two weeks. But if I plan to go anywhere this summer.... it's going to be costly, no matter what. At this point, who can afford a vacation?
The other earthquake I experienced was a small on in Egypt. It shook a little bit, I felt it. It was strange, but I think I was more worried if our buildings could withstand any kind of shaking at all, or if they would just crumble immediately.
So, here's to natural disasters.... They're bound to get us at some point, if the world keeps going the way it does. Yes, I'm a little fatalistic these days. Food is going up, electricity is going up by 18% (that's what the news said, here in VA), Gas is $3.69 a gallon! What will we do? There's no way we can live like this. Things have to change. Every week the gas prices go up by 5 cents. It will be $5 by the end of the summer.
I need a job where I can walk or ride my bike.....At least I only fill my car tank up every two weeks. But if I plan to go anywhere this summer.... it's going to be costly, no matter what. At this point, who can afford a vacation?
Friday, May 02, 2008
FRIDAY!
Pan for this weekend:
Tonight: The Kills @ the black cat...I'm sure I won't be the oldest one there, however, I'm pretty sure I'm going to be 15 years older than most of the people there...(all ages show, I think). Haven't been out in a super long time, I hope I can keep up. It will be nap time after school, for sure.
Saturday early afternoon (no hangover please): Not so fun-- Doc appointment (no alarms and no surprises, please). I hope I'm fine.
Saturday Afternoon: Parents coming for a visit (they haven't been to my apartment since last February -- of 2007, about damn time) . Hopefully a nice dinner in Old Town.
Saturday Evening: Relaxing, celebrating, going crazy...... or movie watching, looking on the bright side of life... we'll see....
Sunday: SLEEP AS LATE AS POSSIBLE
Sunday Afternoon: I say brunch and gym, outside possibly?
Sunday Evening: Movie, make dinner, go to bed early (I'll need it for sure)
All I know is that my weekends come and go so quickly, I am thankful that this one isn't packed. The week is stressful and rough, I just want the weekends to be filled with relaxing fun things...
Happy Friday !
Tonight: The Kills @ the black cat...I'm sure I won't be the oldest one there, however, I'm pretty sure I'm going to be 15 years older than most of the people there...(all ages show, I think). Haven't been out in a super long time, I hope I can keep up. It will be nap time after school, for sure.
Saturday early afternoon (no hangover please): Not so fun-- Doc appointment (no alarms and no surprises, please). I hope I'm fine.
Saturday Afternoon: Parents coming for a visit (they haven't been to my apartment since last February -- of 2007, about damn time) . Hopefully a nice dinner in Old Town.
Saturday Evening: Relaxing, celebrating, going crazy...... or movie watching, looking on the bright side of life... we'll see....
Sunday: SLEEP AS LATE AS POSSIBLE
Sunday Afternoon: I say brunch and gym, outside possibly?
Sunday Evening: Movie, make dinner, go to bed early (I'll need it for sure)
All I know is that my weekends come and go so quickly, I am thankful that this one isn't packed. The week is stressful and rough, I just want the weekends to be filled with relaxing fun things...
Happy Friday !
Thursday, May 01, 2008
May day may day may day
No, I'm not going down in flames, however it feels like work is going straight into the can. We've had to make many changes in our environment. And it doesn't quite make me feel safe to work here. Since our students have changed we've definitely acquired some very , let's say, unsavory students. Including ones who were trying to get a riot going last week (rumor has it, it didn't happen because certain kids didn't want certain adults to get hurt). Well, the staff got wind of this "riot" and it never happened. All the kids were locked individually in their rooms, and we were left for 3 hours discussing the behavior of certain kids.
Basically they were looking for kids who are a threat to themselves, or other people. Violent types that might instigate something. People managed to come up with a list of 12 kids, and they are all in their room for whatever reason. The rest of the kids are all on restricted movement, which means they aren't allowed to come to the classrooms. We have to go to each individual unit and teach.
This is a hard task to perform because essentially we are teaching in their common room, that's where they play cards, watch tv...all of that. So it's pretty hard to make the switch. They really act a lot differently when they're not in a "school setting". And of course this is a burden on all of us, especially me. I have to essentially be art on a cart. I have to end class a little bit earlier just so I can pack up my supplies and take them with me to the next unit. Yesterday was the most difficult because I had organize what to bring, and I forgot a few of the students works, I didn't have enough paper, and I couldn't use the computer for kids to get resources.
It's not a great idea. I know they're thinking of safety first. And that is very important in this case, however, those kids are already separated and locked down in their rooms individually. The kids in my class, are still the same. You know? I have kids I can trust, who will work hard and do their best no matter what, and then I have the students who are demanding, take my energy and I have to spend time with them.. But that is like any classroom. Am I threatened by them? No.
Ahh, too much going on. I did manage to finally treat myself to a hair trim yesterday. I was beginning to feel very much like a really bad picture of Axl Rose (not totally, my hair is pretty healthy). I felt unkempt. She did a nice job. I explained to her that I was trying to grow my hair out to donate it...I didn't get into the politics. She loved my idea, and said that I would be the perfect candidate because my hair was thick, healthy, and wavy... HA! How did she know I really needed the compliment?
It's been a rough week. Not feeling quite like my usual self and I have a lot of built up anxiety about this job....
HOWEVER--------- J and I planned a trip. We got a really good flight and hotel package deal to..............................wait for it....................... the BAHAMAS!! Yay! So in about 3 weeks I will be sitting, staring at the turquoise water, drinking some beautiful rum drink..... I can't wait. WE need it bad.. I guess that's where my tax refund is going.....
Anyway, on to preparing for class. Kids are doing ok on this round of project. We're using nature as an inspiration to make patterns in art. We're going to look at my favorite artist.....Andy Goldsworthy today.
Basically they were looking for kids who are a threat to themselves, or other people. Violent types that might instigate something. People managed to come up with a list of 12 kids, and they are all in their room for whatever reason. The rest of the kids are all on restricted movement, which means they aren't allowed to come to the classrooms. We have to go to each individual unit and teach.
This is a hard task to perform because essentially we are teaching in their common room, that's where they play cards, watch tv...all of that. So it's pretty hard to make the switch. They really act a lot differently when they're not in a "school setting". And of course this is a burden on all of us, especially me. I have to essentially be art on a cart. I have to end class a little bit earlier just so I can pack up my supplies and take them with me to the next unit. Yesterday was the most difficult because I had organize what to bring, and I forgot a few of the students works, I didn't have enough paper, and I couldn't use the computer for kids to get resources.
It's not a great idea. I know they're thinking of safety first. And that is very important in this case, however, those kids are already separated and locked down in their rooms individually. The kids in my class, are still the same. You know? I have kids I can trust, who will work hard and do their best no matter what, and then I have the students who are demanding, take my energy and I have to spend time with them.. But that is like any classroom. Am I threatened by them? No.
Ahh, too much going on. I did manage to finally treat myself to a hair trim yesterday. I was beginning to feel very much like a really bad picture of Axl Rose (not totally, my hair is pretty healthy). I felt unkempt. She did a nice job. I explained to her that I was trying to grow my hair out to donate it...I didn't get into the politics. She loved my idea, and said that I would be the perfect candidate because my hair was thick, healthy, and wavy... HA! How did she know I really needed the compliment?
It's been a rough week. Not feeling quite like my usual self and I have a lot of built up anxiety about this job....
HOWEVER--------- J and I planned a trip. We got a really good flight and hotel package deal to..............................wait for it....................... the BAHAMAS!! Yay! So in about 3 weeks I will be sitting, staring at the turquoise water, drinking some beautiful rum drink..... I can't wait. WE need it bad.. I guess that's where my tax refund is going.....
Anyway, on to preparing for class. Kids are doing ok on this round of project. We're using nature as an inspiration to make patterns in art. We're going to look at my favorite artist.....Andy Goldsworthy today.
Monday, April 28, 2008
Cute things
J and I went for a hike around Burke Lake this Saturday. I didn't even know this place existed in the middle of suburbia. But there is a man-made lake in the middle of NOVA. It's about 5 miles around. Which was a beautiful hike. Very nice way to spend a warm Saturday. You can almost NOT here the passing cars, ambulance sirens, and 18-wheelers...almost.
But there were many cute things.
One of the first things we saw a group of geese. MEAN-- they are mean, but this little gosling was so cute.. So very cute.
But there were many cute things.
One of the first things we saw a group of geese. MEAN-- they are mean, but this little gosling was so cute.. So very cute. 
Here they are drinking water from the lake. They didn't snap at me or chase me, but geese are known for being one of the most territorial flocks ever!! And they honk at you all the time.
J managed to capture this picture of a beautiful bird. A cardinal?
I think more hiking is in order for us, it was a beautiful day.
Caught up on some movie watching once the rain came in to. Saw a bunch of really creepy dramas:
Before the Devil Knows your dead. A pair of brothers decide to rip off their parents' jewelry store... Not really sure I liked this one, though. I don't know.
Fracture. Could Anthony Hopkins NOT be scary? He plays a husband who kills his wife.
The Prestige. Amazingly much better than anticipated (Christian Bale and Hugh Jackman help....and if your a male movie goer, Scarlett Johannson is in it too). 2 magicians try to outdo each other...but it gets creepy.
Gone Baby Gone. Perhaps one of the best movies I've seen in a really long time. It's difficult to take in... but so good. Detectives investigate a missing child.
There's a few more I've seen in the last few weeks, but these are the most memorable. There's a lull in the movies I'd actually like to see. Still trying to see Juno--everyone I know has seen it.....except me.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Mega Update!
Here are some fun things I've been doing since March.. Or completed. I haven't been taking tons of pictures, and I need to catch up. However, here are a few pics from the Cherry Blossoms this year, ATO's visit, and a painting. They're all kind of mixed up, sorry.
The beautiful Jefferson Memorial during the Cherry Blossom Festival. It was the first official day and there were tons and tons of tourists. The whole official festival is about 2 weeks longer during the height of the blossoms. This year, they were right on!
I don't think I've ever seen this many in bloom before. Last year I went towards the end and I missed a bunch. This year the color seemed stronger too!
Ok, here's the HUGE painting I did. It's like 4 feet tall. I spent tons of time on it, there's a detail below.
Me at the cherry blossoms. Note the the hue of my scarf. Damn, my hair is getting long. It was also kinda cold.
The Thomas Jefferson Memorial from the other end of the Tidal Basin.
It was also the kite festival. Although we made it down there late, there were still tons of people flying their kites. It was the perfect day, and I wish I had one to fly! Check out the dragon trying to land on the Washington Monument.
Close up of painting. Here's where I'll explain what I did. I collaged song lyrics that my best friend chose. Then I did a loose wash over the whole thing, left the drips, tore away some of the paper so it would leave some dark spots. Then I made 2 inch squares across the whole thing in some kind of order... Then I made one inch square going in each direction as I turned the canvas. Then I painted my lettering (script, whatever you want to call it) in the bigger squares, and finally used a tiny black tipped pen to go over the entire 4 ft canvas (I don't recommend it).
I'm now working on another painting. I'm trying to create better layers. I'm in the early stages, and as you know me, sometimes I start something, hate it, and restart it, just to create layers...
Spring seems to be in full force here, although I think we're in for one final cold snap this week. I can really do without the 50's. I'm ready to be acclimated to the 70's and 80's. The sun is great, and being outside is soooooooo nice!
I will try to be better about updating my blog, but my computer at home stinks, and I rarely get a chance at school to sit and write... What does that say about me? I am too lazy to fix my dang computer at home......
The beautiful Jefferson Memorial during the Cherry Blossom Festival. It was the first official day and there were tons and tons of tourists. The whole official festival is about 2 weeks longer during the height of the blossoms. This year, they were right on!
I don't think I've ever seen this many in bloom before. Last year I went towards the end and I missed a bunch. This year the color seemed stronger too!
Ok, here's the HUGE painting I did. It's like 4 feet tall. I spent tons of time on it, there's a detail below.
Me at the cherry blossoms. Note the the hue of my scarf. Damn, my hair is getting long. It was also kinda cold.
Opps, that one is on it's side, but you get the idea of how many blossoms were around!
It's TJ!
Close up of the lone blossom.
The Thomas Jefferson Memorial from the other end of the Tidal Basin.
It was also the kite festival. Although we made it down there late, there were still tons of people flying their kites. It was the perfect day, and I wish I had one to fly! Check out the dragon trying to land on the Washington Monument.
More kite flying. I love the arms!
OK- Busch Gardens, Williamsburg. "O" is a dancing machine. He taught us the hustle, and to bounce. Bounce with me, bounce with me....
Close up of painting. Here's where I'll explain what I did. I collaged song lyrics that my best friend chose. Then I did a loose wash over the whole thing, left the drips, tore away some of the paper so it would leave some dark spots. Then I made 2 inch squares across the whole thing in some kind of order... Then I made one inch square going in each direction as I turned the canvas. Then I painted my lettering (script, whatever you want to call it) in the bigger squares, and finally used a tiny black tipped pen to go over the entire 4 ft canvas (I don't recommend it).I'm now working on another painting. I'm trying to create better layers. I'm in the early stages, and as you know me, sometimes I start something, hate it, and restart it, just to create layers...
Spring seems to be in full force here, although I think we're in for one final cold snap this week. I can really do without the 50's. I'm ready to be acclimated to the 70's and 80's. The sun is great, and being outside is soooooooo nice!
I will try to be better about updating my blog, but my computer at home stinks, and I rarely get a chance at school to sit and write... What does that say about me? I am too lazy to fix my dang computer at home......
Thursday, April 17, 2008
I need a new doctor
I've been to this doctor a few times. I have sleep issues. She's not a specialist or anything, but a few months ago she said I should give Ambien a try since I'm not a huge drug taker. I hate taking medication, and I try to stay away from it at all costs. However it's working ok for me.
But, I'm about to lose my mind all over again with insomina... NOW I am also taking this other medication for the last week, and guess what I just looked up on the internet.... It causes insomnia! So the Ambien isn't even working this week because the other medication I have to take keeps me up. Not only that, it causes incordnation, and dry mouth! All the things I am feeling this week.
Fortunately for me, I go back to the doctor on Saturday, and I am going to talk to her about it because I'm going to freakin' lose my mind. And I'm serious. Not only that, I found out that it is found to change something cardiovascularly-- which is why today when I went outside for a run, I just about died....
Good news though, I think it is officially spring time. Begone cold wind and low temperatures. Bring sunny skies, blue with no clouds (or some puffy ones..that's ok). Saturday my BFF are hanging out and I hope we can be outside for a little bit.
Working on a possible vacation with J over memorial day weekend. I know, those of you who are stateside, it probably sounds like a nightmare. But we're trying to see if we can leave the country and still go to the beach... We think the Bahamas might be it. -cross your fingers- That's what I'm using my tax return on.......
Ok, for the record. I have taken ambien, I feel a little drowsy, and uncoordinated. So I better go wash my face and brush my teeth before I zonk out..or rather, I have to take the other meds too... DAMN it.
But, I'm about to lose my mind all over again with insomina... NOW I am also taking this other medication for the last week, and guess what I just looked up on the internet.... It causes insomnia! So the Ambien isn't even working this week because the other medication I have to take keeps me up. Not only that, it causes incordnation, and dry mouth! All the things I am feeling this week.
Fortunately for me, I go back to the doctor on Saturday, and I am going to talk to her about it because I'm going to freakin' lose my mind. And I'm serious. Not only that, I found out that it is found to change something cardiovascularly-- which is why today when I went outside for a run, I just about died....
Good news though, I think it is officially spring time. Begone cold wind and low temperatures. Bring sunny skies, blue with no clouds (or some puffy ones..that's ok). Saturday my BFF are hanging out and I hope we can be outside for a little bit.
Working on a possible vacation with J over memorial day weekend. I know, those of you who are stateside, it probably sounds like a nightmare. But we're trying to see if we can leave the country and still go to the beach... We think the Bahamas might be it. -cross your fingers- That's what I'm using my tax return on.......
Ok, for the record. I have taken ambien, I feel a little drowsy, and uncoordinated. So I better go wash my face and brush my teeth before I zonk out..or rather, I have to take the other meds too... DAMN it.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Monday, April 14, 2008
Here's one for the books
After years of looking after kids in various capacities, I don't remember ever feeling this upset over something that was out of control... well, except for that kid I chased down back in 1997. I worked for a day camp, this kid who was out of control, on serious medication, and aggressive didn't want to follow directions. And so I was about to take him back to my office (I was the head counselor at the time) and cool out. He decided to sprint off. SO what did I do? Go after him. I think we sprinted for a good mile, we both got winded, I managed to hold onto his tee-shirt for about 1/2 hour while he was fighting me, and a cop finally came and found us. I went home that day and lost it.... It was the most stressed I had ever been, and I only reacted based on instinct..
So here's the story about this last week that really put me into a similar-feeling situation, although this time I was an on-looker:
Here's what happened:
I heard some yelling outside my door during first period. Luckily I don't have a class, so I just stood at my door to just make sure everything was ok. The only thing I was doing, was preparing for my next class. Well, the kid got quiet all of a sudden and started walking down the hallway. Mr. M was the detention specialist who was trying to get him to calm down. But the kid wouldn't listen. The kid walks towards me, and right past me into my classroom without a word, or a glance. His eyes immediately start darting around the room, and I immediately assumed he was looking for something to use as a weapon. He walks the perimeter of my room slowly, but with deliberate steps. In the meantime, Mr. M and I are saying things like: Why don't you have a seat? Let's sit down and talk, let's just take a break (all in non-threatening tones).
All of a sudden the kid passes the front of the room and picks up the yardstick I had been using to draw this morning.... Mr. M immediately reacted and said: put it down son. And the kid raised it up as to hit one of us with it. But Mr. M grabbed him, immediately got the yardstick out of his hands, and got the kids hands behind his back.. AMAZING REALLY...
However, that was just he beginning. The kid struggled for about 1/2 an hour. 3 male adults had to restrain him on my floor while he was spitting, thrashing his head around and yelling all kinds of things. I think Mr. M. got hit by the kids head thrashings, but that was it. They tried to let him walk out of the room, but he continued to put up a fight. They finally had to drag him out of my room, back to his room. In his room he decided to yell, slam himself into the door, and they finally had to sedate him.
As soon as he was gone, I just broke down. It just came over me and I got really upset. Mostly, because I never would have expected that kind of violent outburst from the kid, but yet it was a reminder at how dangerous it can be in here. It's a reminder of how dangerous a kid can be. Which is extremely upsetting to me.
I'm so much better now, because there's nothing I could have done to change the situation, and I know that. But still, kids are kids in my eyes. It's hard to see a real aggressive struggle take place in front of you. I know that these kids are like loose cannons, but I can't help but feel empathetic to their life situations. It's almost like they're trying to survive among wild beasts. They are in survival mode.
What started his rage? Why did he thrash around? Why was he willing to hurt someone else? No particular reason why as far as I can tell. Maybe it was a bad day for him, he didn't feel like being told what to do, he didn't know how to handle his feelings, he didn't have his medication, he heard some bad news about his case... I don't know! But does it really matter in the moment? No. Obviously this kid's disobedience is at the very bottom of this hopeless and helpless pit he seems to have been put in or put himself in.
Argh.
But here it is Monday again.. Time to start the week over, time to kind of shed what happened last week and not let last weeks incident slip into the new week that seems so far unblemished. Time to move forward. And I am.. Today was a pretty good day as far as school days go. Kids did work, I saw some of them smile, I helped them work. It was good. Can I see myself doing this for an extended period of time?
no.
It really is hard. It's stressful work. As much as I do enjoy the little successes, it's frustrating to know you will never get far with any of these kids, they're not getting what they need, but it's nothing you can give them.
So, bring on Tuesday. I think I can handle it.
So here's the story about this last week that really put me into a similar-feeling situation, although this time I was an on-looker:
Here's what happened:
I heard some yelling outside my door during first period. Luckily I don't have a class, so I just stood at my door to just make sure everything was ok. The only thing I was doing, was preparing for my next class. Well, the kid got quiet all of a sudden and started walking down the hallway. Mr. M was the detention specialist who was trying to get him to calm down. But the kid wouldn't listen. The kid walks towards me, and right past me into my classroom without a word, or a glance. His eyes immediately start darting around the room, and I immediately assumed he was looking for something to use as a weapon. He walks the perimeter of my room slowly, but with deliberate steps. In the meantime, Mr. M and I are saying things like: Why don't you have a seat? Let's sit down and talk, let's just take a break (all in non-threatening tones).
All of a sudden the kid passes the front of the room and picks up the yardstick I had been using to draw this morning.... Mr. M immediately reacted and said: put it down son. And the kid raised it up as to hit one of us with it. But Mr. M grabbed him, immediately got the yardstick out of his hands, and got the kids hands behind his back.. AMAZING REALLY...
However, that was just he beginning. The kid struggled for about 1/2 an hour. 3 male adults had to restrain him on my floor while he was spitting, thrashing his head around and yelling all kinds of things. I think Mr. M. got hit by the kids head thrashings, but that was it. They tried to let him walk out of the room, but he continued to put up a fight. They finally had to drag him out of my room, back to his room. In his room he decided to yell, slam himself into the door, and they finally had to sedate him.
As soon as he was gone, I just broke down. It just came over me and I got really upset. Mostly, because I never would have expected that kind of violent outburst from the kid, but yet it was a reminder at how dangerous it can be in here. It's a reminder of how dangerous a kid can be. Which is extremely upsetting to me.
I'm so much better now, because there's nothing I could have done to change the situation, and I know that. But still, kids are kids in my eyes. It's hard to see a real aggressive struggle take place in front of you. I know that these kids are like loose cannons, but I can't help but feel empathetic to their life situations. It's almost like they're trying to survive among wild beasts. They are in survival mode.
What started his rage? Why did he thrash around? Why was he willing to hurt someone else? No particular reason why as far as I can tell. Maybe it was a bad day for him, he didn't feel like being told what to do, he didn't know how to handle his feelings, he didn't have his medication, he heard some bad news about his case... I don't know! But does it really matter in the moment? No. Obviously this kid's disobedience is at the very bottom of this hopeless and helpless pit he seems to have been put in or put himself in.
Argh.
But here it is Monday again.. Time to start the week over, time to kind of shed what happened last week and not let last weeks incident slip into the new week that seems so far unblemished. Time to move forward. And I am.. Today was a pretty good day as far as school days go. Kids did work, I saw some of them smile, I helped them work. It was good. Can I see myself doing this for an extended period of time?
no.
It really is hard. It's stressful work. As much as I do enjoy the little successes, it's frustrating to know you will never get far with any of these kids, they're not getting what they need, but it's nothing you can give them.
So, bring on Tuesday. I think I can handle it.
Friday, April 11, 2008
let the 4th quarter begin
Yeah, yesterday wasn't such a great day. I had to watch a kid get taken down in my classroom yesterday. Fortunately it was an empty classroom, because I had no class at the time. But to make a long story short it took 3 men to hold the kid down while he screamed, spit and thrashed around. He eventually had to be dragged and lifted to get to his room. It took them 1/2 hour to get him to a point where they could actually move him with out him hitting his head on something, or taking one of them out.
I got really upset after the ordeal, because no one wants to see something like that. Yes some of these kids wouldn't think twice about me or themselves, and what they did, but they're still kids. But, things like that are a wake up call for where I am working, and helping me to realize that safety truly is an issue at any moment. Any kid and anytime could react to something or decide to be aggressive or violent.
Many other things happened this week, so this was just the capstone. They ended up cutting the school day short because of other things that were happening back on the unit, and in some other classroom a student was concealing a pencil or something.
We just have some kids with some really aggressive behavior, dangerous psychological disorders, and violent kids. But the crazy thing is that they're mixed in with kids who do stupid kids things. It makes no sense to have them anywhere near each other.
Good thing it's Friday, it's a teacher work day, it's the end of the third quarter.
One more Quarter to go until summer break... Too bad that my 4th quarter is an extended one. My school year doesn't end until June 20-something! ARGH, I hope I make it.
This weekend I'm going to try to be outside, soaking in the lovely spring weather, eat some fancy food, play with Oliver (cutest 1 year and odd months old in the history of the world.) Have some fancy drinks. And relax..........
I'm really just wondering when I can go to the beach?????????humm......beach..I'll take any beach. Well, almost any beach. Not some trashy beach with anything man made washing up on the sand. (no thanks)
I got really upset after the ordeal, because no one wants to see something like that. Yes some of these kids wouldn't think twice about me or themselves, and what they did, but they're still kids. But, things like that are a wake up call for where I am working, and helping me to realize that safety truly is an issue at any moment. Any kid and anytime could react to something or decide to be aggressive or violent.
Many other things happened this week, so this was just the capstone. They ended up cutting the school day short because of other things that were happening back on the unit, and in some other classroom a student was concealing a pencil or something.
We just have some kids with some really aggressive behavior, dangerous psychological disorders, and violent kids. But the crazy thing is that they're mixed in with kids who do stupid kids things. It makes no sense to have them anywhere near each other.
Good thing it's Friday, it's a teacher work day, it's the end of the third quarter.
One more Quarter to go until summer break... Too bad that my 4th quarter is an extended one. My school year doesn't end until June 20-something! ARGH, I hope I make it.
This weekend I'm going to try to be outside, soaking in the lovely spring weather, eat some fancy food, play with Oliver (cutest 1 year and odd months old in the history of the world.) Have some fancy drinks. And relax..........
I'm really just wondering when I can go to the beach?????????humm......beach..I'll take any beach. Well, almost any beach. Not some trashy beach with anything man made washing up on the sand. (no thanks)
Friday, April 04, 2008
This week kind of reminds me of a song
10,000 Maniacs - Like the Weather
the color of the sky as far as I can see is coal gray
lift my head from the pillow and then fall again
with a shiver in my bones just thinking about the weather
a quiver in my lips as if I might cry
well by the force of will my lungs are filled and so I breathe
lately it seems this big bed is where I never leave
shiver in my bones just thinking about the weather
quiver in my voice as I cry
what a cold and rainy day
where on earth is the sun hid away?
I hear the sound of a noon bell chime,
I'm far behind you've put in 'bout half a day
while here I lie
with a shiver in my bones just thinking about the weather
a quiver in my lip as if I might cry
what a cold and rainy day
where on earth is the sun hid away?
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Yeah, where is the sun? It's been raining for like a week straight. It was almost freezing last night. It's April, and I'm ready for some bright skies. Plus Williamsburg won't be as nearly as much fun if it's like this.
Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
This might brighten any one's day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pT6RzQK_luI
the color of the sky as far as I can see is coal gray
lift my head from the pillow and then fall again
with a shiver in my bones just thinking about the weather
a quiver in my lips as if I might cry
well by the force of will my lungs are filled and so I breathe
lately it seems this big bed is where I never leave
shiver in my bones just thinking about the weather
quiver in my voice as I cry
what a cold and rainy day
where on earth is the sun hid away?
I hear the sound of a noon bell chime,
I'm far behind you've put in 'bout half a day
while here I lie
with a shiver in my bones just thinking about the weather
a quiver in my lip as if I might cry
what a cold and rainy day
where on earth is the sun hid away?
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Yeah, where is the sun? It's been raining for like a week straight. It was almost freezing last night. It's April, and I'm ready for some bright skies. Plus Williamsburg won't be as nearly as much fun if it's like this.
Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
This might brighten any one's day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pT6RzQK_luI
Thursday, April 03, 2008
So funny.
You have to watch this! I love these guys.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDo_vs3Aip4
"I like impressionism in general. Like I could do chicken sounds sometimes, or duck noises."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDo_vs3Aip4
"I like impressionism in general. Like I could do chicken sounds sometimes, or duck noises."
Darn you Jona!
Jona's making me answer questions about life and my future.
Five Places I've Lived:
1. Alexandria, Virginia
2. Albuquerque, New Mexico
3. Pretoria, South Africa
4. Cairo, Egypt
5. Bonn, Germany
Five Things On My To-Do List Today:
1. Go to Target and pick up Travis' Amy's list of things for Oliver. They're visiting and I want them to have some things for Oliver so they don't have to waste time going shopping. I'm sure I'm going to feel weird about buying baby wipes and diapers.
2. Pay my bill for my new mattress, and unfortunately venture to the mall to return pants.
3. Pack for the weekend. We're off to Williamsburg with T, A, and O. Can't wait for a tiny break away from this area.
4. MUST GO TO BANK - deposit, transfer, and get some cash.
5. Clean the bathroom. I did everything but that yesterday, just because I hate it so much.
Five things to do at home:
1. Running (4 miles!!)
2. Paint and draw
3. Re-arrange for A, T, and O's visit
4. Hang with J tonight. Rerun of Lost?
5. I better put clean the bathroom again...
Five Jobs I've Had:
1. Day camp counselor
2. Professor's assistant
3. Secretary at the US Embassy in Germany
4. Teacher
5. Child Life Specialist at UNM Children's Hospital
Ten Years From Now:
Oye--- I don't know. Married with a kid or two. Working consistently as an artist. Traveling, saving money, having a mortgage, enjoying my family, friends, and life in general. (I have great difficulty navigating future plans, so it's very general)
Ok, there you have it!
Five Places I've Lived:
1. Alexandria, Virginia
2. Albuquerque, New Mexico
3. Pretoria, South Africa
4. Cairo, Egypt
5. Bonn, Germany
Five Things On My To-Do List Today:
1. Go to Target and pick up Travis' Amy's list of things for Oliver. They're visiting and I want them to have some things for Oliver so they don't have to waste time going shopping. I'm sure I'm going to feel weird about buying baby wipes and diapers.
2. Pay my bill for my new mattress, and unfortunately venture to the mall to return pants.
3. Pack for the weekend. We're off to Williamsburg with T, A, and O. Can't wait for a tiny break away from this area.
4. MUST GO TO BANK - deposit, transfer, and get some cash.
5. Clean the bathroom. I did everything but that yesterday, just because I hate it so much.
Five things to do at home:
1. Running (4 miles!!)
2. Paint and draw
3. Re-arrange for A, T, and O's visit
4. Hang with J tonight. Rerun of Lost?
5. I better put clean the bathroom again...
Five Jobs I've Had:
1. Day camp counselor
2. Professor's assistant
3. Secretary at the US Embassy in Germany
4. Teacher
5. Child Life Specialist at UNM Children's Hospital
Ten Years From Now:
Oye--- I don't know. Married with a kid or two. Working consistently as an artist. Traveling, saving money, having a mortgage, enjoying my family, friends, and life in general. (I have great difficulty navigating future plans, so it's very general)
Ok, there you have it!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
First day back, hard day back
It's kind of expected to come back to school with a certain amount of trepidation. Spring break is a cruel joke, kind of. It's a bad length. I would almost rather have 4 day work weeks for the rest of the school year rather than a spring break. It's a good size break if you actually go away from your area and treat yourself to a little R&R (I should have done that). It's a bad size break if you don't do so much with it and stay in the area. Make sense? Well, I guess what I mean to say is that I didn't unwind, I didn't have a sense of time off. I just ended up doing all the things I've been meaning to do. Run errands, pay bills, clean out the closet...all those things. So it wasn't really a vacation. And last night my mind was racing with all the other things I should have done before the break was over.
Ah, so I learned my lesson. PLAN TO GO AWAY FOR SPRING BREAK. And, definitely take a nice summer trip.
On the plus side, I was able to take that amazing to student to sign up for his scholarship course. That was truly the highlight of my week. He was pretty excited to get his art supplies, and now I'm sure he's really excited to get started on the class in a couple of weeks.
Made a trip up to my parent's house for a day. Good to see the parents, and get rid of some items I cleaned out of my closet earlier in the week. Too bad it was too cold to take Lhotse for a walk. Later in the week I made a trip down to Charlottesville with J for Easter. There, I got to catch up on a little bit of reading. We ate some good meals. Although, I didn't feel too well. I have a horrible constant dull pain in my shoulder that won't go away...
This week is a short work week (yessssss) and I hope to work on some art. I've been trying to make it more and more of a priority. Someday I may have a full body of work again. And a show? Who knows... People keep encouraging to make a website too, but I just don't have the time. Maybe another art blog?? Who knows...
Hopefully the week will get a little easier to handle as it goes by, and I'm just feeling a little shell shocked. I still have weeks ahead. All of April, May, and June. At some point I'd like to rethink this 11 month teaching job. I'm continually realizing just how stressful this workplace truly is.
Ah, so I learned my lesson. PLAN TO GO AWAY FOR SPRING BREAK. And, definitely take a nice summer trip.
On the plus side, I was able to take that amazing to student to sign up for his scholarship course. That was truly the highlight of my week. He was pretty excited to get his art supplies, and now I'm sure he's really excited to get started on the class in a couple of weeks.
Made a trip up to my parent's house for a day. Good to see the parents, and get rid of some items I cleaned out of my closet earlier in the week. Too bad it was too cold to take Lhotse for a walk. Later in the week I made a trip down to Charlottesville with J for Easter. There, I got to catch up on a little bit of reading. We ate some good meals. Although, I didn't feel too well. I have a horrible constant dull pain in my shoulder that won't go away...
This week is a short work week (yessssss) and I hope to work on some art. I've been trying to make it more and more of a priority. Someday I may have a full body of work again. And a show? Who knows... People keep encouraging to make a website too, but I just don't have the time. Maybe another art blog?? Who knows...
Hopefully the week will get a little easier to handle as it goes by, and I'm just feeling a little shell shocked. I still have weeks ahead. All of April, May, and June. At some point I'd like to rethink this 11 month teaching job. I'm continually realizing just how stressful this workplace truly is.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Anxiety dreams and spring break
To my delight, I was able to leave early from work yesterday. My principal came into my room and said I could leave since I didn't have another class that day! How nice of him to do that for me. What principal does that? None, I tell you. None.
Too bad it didn't really give me a second wind, because by the time I got home I was completely ready for a nap. So that's what I did. I sat down on the couch, and didn't get up until "J" called. We had made plans to meet a couple friends down in my area of Old town and go have some middle eastern delights... J and I weren't really up to it, but we hadn't seen them in a while, so we thought we'd follow through.
It was ok, the hummus was good, the bread-- not so much. The wine was good. But everything wasn't really fresh, and obviously expensive for what it was. But we had some interesting conversation, and that led to all going for a pint to Ireland's Own (after all, it is so close to that all important green "holiday"). So we went, but J and I were fading fast. I had a pint of cider and J had some whisky (yuck, can't stand the stuff, but what you gonna do?). We chatted and listed to some Irish music and merrily walked home.
It's nice to be able to go out and not drive. I love the freedom of not being totally committed to the car. I would love to not even have a car. But it's just not possible right now. Even though I'm paying $35 a tank, it's necessary. I have to get to work. It's only about 7 miles away, but it's way too dangerous to ride a bike.....
By the way, would someone please tell me why gas stations need flat screen tv's? I don't need tv everywhere? I just don't. Some one's making (bush) a lot of money (bush) off of my consumption of oil (bush). DAMN IT!
I shall move on. It is inevitable that I have nightmare's after watching "Lost"...(don't worry I won't spoil it if you aren't watching). It's so stressful to watch that I have seriously messed up dreams. And maybe I shouldn't place all the blame on a tv show, I mean my job has been pretty stressful these past few weeks.
But anyway, my anxiety dreams usually end up being about my teeth. It isn't that they fall out, or get rotten, or something like that. It's that somehow I end up getting this "chewing gum" (I don't know what it is) stuck in my teeth. And the more I chew, the more it gets stuck. SO this time, i was able to pull some of it out. But it was like the more I pulled on it, the more it created. It was horrible. I woke up and there was a pool of slobber all over my pillow (I know nice visual).
So tell me what this means? I have been anxious, and I've seen all kinds of interpretations of teeth dreams, but none that has to do with stuff getting stuck in your teeth.
This morning I did get up late, and had a nice breakfast, even went for a lovely run. Although, my body is starting to feel it more...especially in the knees. Hopefully that just means I need new shoes. It is the beginning of spring break and I am hoping this week goes a little bit slowly, or feels a bit slower. I need to recharge. I still have to make it through all of June, only to have a month off, and back at it again.
Oh and everybody, pay attention to the news. All that crap is happening in Tibet. As you probably know, that's an area of the world that has always intrigued me, and if you hadn't guessed by now, I am boycotting the Olympics, and I'm not buying products made in China! You should do the same. Yes, I do have some products made in China, but I'm not buying anymore. Try to avoid it if possible. There are horrible things happening in China, not just to Tibetans but to all. And man, have you heard about some people not even going out for the olympics because they're worried about their health? Can you imagine tring to run through the streets of Beijing for 26.2 miles?? Not worth it.
Peace Out!
Too bad it didn't really give me a second wind, because by the time I got home I was completely ready for a nap. So that's what I did. I sat down on the couch, and didn't get up until "J" called. We had made plans to meet a couple friends down in my area of Old town and go have some middle eastern delights... J and I weren't really up to it, but we hadn't seen them in a while, so we thought we'd follow through.
It was ok, the hummus was good, the bread-- not so much. The wine was good. But everything wasn't really fresh, and obviously expensive for what it was. But we had some interesting conversation, and that led to all going for a pint to Ireland's Own (after all, it is so close to that all important green "holiday"). So we went, but J and I were fading fast. I had a pint of cider and J had some whisky (yuck, can't stand the stuff, but what you gonna do?). We chatted and listed to some Irish music and merrily walked home.
It's nice to be able to go out and not drive. I love the freedom of not being totally committed to the car. I would love to not even have a car. But it's just not possible right now. Even though I'm paying $35 a tank, it's necessary. I have to get to work. It's only about 7 miles away, but it's way too dangerous to ride a bike.....
By the way, would someone please tell me why gas stations need flat screen tv's? I don't need tv everywhere? I just don't. Some one's making (bush) a lot of money (bush) off of my consumption of oil (bush). DAMN IT!
I shall move on. It is inevitable that I have nightmare's after watching "Lost"...(don't worry I won't spoil it if you aren't watching). It's so stressful to watch that I have seriously messed up dreams. And maybe I shouldn't place all the blame on a tv show, I mean my job has been pretty stressful these past few weeks.
But anyway, my anxiety dreams usually end up being about my teeth. It isn't that they fall out, or get rotten, or something like that. It's that somehow I end up getting this "chewing gum" (I don't know what it is) stuck in my teeth. And the more I chew, the more it gets stuck. SO this time, i was able to pull some of it out. But it was like the more I pulled on it, the more it created. It was horrible. I woke up and there was a pool of slobber all over my pillow (I know nice visual).
So tell me what this means? I have been anxious, and I've seen all kinds of interpretations of teeth dreams, but none that has to do with stuff getting stuck in your teeth.
This morning I did get up late, and had a nice breakfast, even went for a lovely run. Although, my body is starting to feel it more...especially in the knees. Hopefully that just means I need new shoes. It is the beginning of spring break and I am hoping this week goes a little bit slowly, or feels a bit slower. I need to recharge. I still have to make it through all of June, only to have a month off, and back at it again.
Oh and everybody, pay attention to the news. All that crap is happening in Tibet. As you probably know, that's an area of the world that has always intrigued me, and if you hadn't guessed by now, I am boycotting the Olympics, and I'm not buying products made in China! You should do the same. Yes, I do have some products made in China, but I'm not buying anymore. Try to avoid it if possible. There are horrible things happening in China, not just to Tibetans but to all. And man, have you heard about some people not even going out for the olympics because they're worried about their health? Can you imagine tring to run through the streets of Beijing for 26.2 miles?? Not worth it.
Peace Out!
Friday, March 14, 2008
2 more hours
Spring break is just around the corner, and I'm spent. One more class period to go, clean up, get the heck out.
Things to look forward to? Well, I'm not going anywhere special, really. So I don't have that. But I do have the chance to make art, sleep, watch nonsense on TV., surf the Internet and try to find some new music to listen to, stay up as late as I want, eat yummy stuff, run.
Turns out the weather isn't going to be that great. I really don't like it when we have an early spring break..... it means it's not really spring yet, although I guess winter WILL officially turn over into spring while we're out on break.
I think I'll celebrate tonight though. A lovely beverage will be just fine.
Things to look forward to? Well, I'm not going anywhere special, really. So I don't have that. But I do have the chance to make art, sleep, watch nonsense on TV., surf the Internet and try to find some new music to listen to, stay up as late as I want, eat yummy stuff, run.
Turns out the weather isn't going to be that great. I really don't like it when we have an early spring break..... it means it's not really spring yet, although I guess winter WILL officially turn over into spring while we're out on break.
I think I'll celebrate tonight though. A lovely beverage will be just fine.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Yikes
This week has not been the best week of teaching for me. It all started on Monday. The d-home staff have specific shifts they follow. And this week school happened to start with the relief shift. Not such a good idea, when two men who are older and bigger than you are actually scared of the students. HA. Yes, so scared that they don't enforce any rules, and if a kids breaks a rule, they write them up, and don't even tell them about it. Needless to say, that's not how it's supposed to work. The kids were trying to deal with the d-home staff, just like the rest of us to try to to make it through the day, however there had been more outbursts, breakdowns, cool outs, toss outs, lock downs, lecturing, and words shouted more in the last two days then the whole year.
It all has to do with consistency, respect...and NOT trying to be the kid's friend. They don't need friends, they need adults to give them specific instructions and stick to what is expected. NOTHING LESS! When you have adults yelling down the hall, or talking to kids in line, or telling them inappropriate things, of course our students think it is an acceptable behavior to do it too!
I could go on and on, but I won't. The week is almost over, and despite a student almost burning down my classroom (a student decided to turn on the burners of the stove in my room), we are all still alive and I'm still keepin' on....
Spring break is a couple days away and I plan on sleeping. But today I have an all district art meeting in MY art room, so I have to get ready for that. In addition to that I've bee busy all week too. I can't catch a break.
Yesterday, J and I went out with one of his students (and wife), and while that was very interesting (both are from Saudi Arabia and the husband works for the State Department), I was so tired. I couldn't fully participate in enjoying myself. Ugh.... maybe next time, they were quite a nice couple. Not a traditional Saudi family, definitely more western and liberal... the wife really wants Obama to win..... However, watching them as a couple was interesting, and since I was doing a lot of listening and observing, I watched how they treated each other. He was definitely formal and aware of his wife's needs and wants while we're eating. Very properly, traditional etiquette really... But his wife and I did get into a discussion about teaching. She wanted to come and see where I work. She honestly has to get his approval for it. I was kind of amazed, because she kind of acted like a child saying," Please, oh please, can I go....please?" I told her the door was always open, but I think the husband was more like, halas, mesh. (end, no)
Oops, gotta run...a meeting... I have 2 today!
It all has to do with consistency, respect...and NOT trying to be the kid's friend. They don't need friends, they need adults to give them specific instructions and stick to what is expected. NOTHING LESS! When you have adults yelling down the hall, or talking to kids in line, or telling them inappropriate things, of course our students think it is an acceptable behavior to do it too!
I could go on and on, but I won't. The week is almost over, and despite a student almost burning down my classroom (a student decided to turn on the burners of the stove in my room), we are all still alive and I'm still keepin' on....
Spring break is a couple days away and I plan on sleeping. But today I have an all district art meeting in MY art room, so I have to get ready for that. In addition to that I've bee busy all week too. I can't catch a break.
Yesterday, J and I went out with one of his students (and wife), and while that was very interesting (both are from Saudi Arabia and the husband works for the State Department), I was so tired. I couldn't fully participate in enjoying myself. Ugh.... maybe next time, they were quite a nice couple. Not a traditional Saudi family, definitely more western and liberal... the wife really wants Obama to win..... However, watching them as a couple was interesting, and since I was doing a lot of listening and observing, I watched how they treated each other. He was definitely formal and aware of his wife's needs and wants while we're eating. Very properly, traditional etiquette really... But his wife and I did get into a discussion about teaching. She wanted to come and see where I work. She honestly has to get his approval for it. I was kind of amazed, because she kind of acted like a child saying," Please, oh please, can I go....please?" I told her the door was always open, but I think the husband was more like, halas, mesh. (end, no)
Oops, gotta run...a meeting... I have 2 today!
Thursday, March 06, 2008
About yesterday..
Obviously I was bothered by the whole thing with the music teacher because I talked about it with the English and Speical Ed teacher (both of whom I really like). The English teacher decided to blog about our conversation, and I thought I'd paste it here:
Another Brick in the Wall
A conversation with a couple of colleagues, both of whom I like and respect, got me thinking yesterday about some of our most basic philosophical assumptions about education and why we do it. We're providing certain skills that we judge to be critical to getting on in the world--reading, writing, a understanding of how one's own government works, and so on. Kids need to get into college, because they need jobs that will actually allow them to support themselves and a family. In the specific context of the Detention Center, how and what we teach is revealing of what assumptions we make about these kids and where we think they're headed. Will they be teaching? Fixing cars? Checking people out at Target? Nurses? Doctors? Working in an office? Back in jail? Running an office? I don't think the role of curiosity, self-expression or problem solving in education can be overstated. This brings me back to the chat with my colleagues. One colleague and I were in agreement, it seems, that students can produce a variety of "products" to demonstrate a certain skill. In art, it might be a painting, or a sketch. It might, in English, be an essay, a journal entry, a skit, a thank you letter to a visiting speaker, or participation in a debate or discussion. These are all assignments my students have produced. Another colleague seemed to express that if a product wasn't "computational", it might be nice and fun, but was not necessarily actual learning. As I understand it, memorization as a means of building the capacity to concentrate and focus play a role in this classroom. These are necessary to learning, of course, but to my mind this beg the question of what one then does with the facts one has memorized or to what end one applies such focus. The argument went that life is full of unpleasant tasks and students need to learn to focus on them and do them anyway. The underlying assumptions here about what's worthwhile and what isn't fascinate me. Thought processes, by their nature, can't be 'seen'; when expressed they can be read or heard. Is loving a poem a "product" of a quality education? What about the kid who was in my class for a few weeks as we were reading The Diary of Anne Frank, the one who was released before we finished it? He returned to us a couple of weeks later and asked me if Anne and Peter had gotten together, and did she survive? Where's the role of inspiration in our classrooms, of excitement about a good book because it's a good book? Isn't that what being "life long learners" is about? Or do we view that as an extra, great for the kids who have passed their standardized tests but not a priority for kids with low skills who still struggle with the basics. I am, of course, arguing that creating that excitement is necessary to raising those basic skills. I believe human beings are hard-wired to want to learn. Every society has had art, music and stories to tell. Every single one, period. Do we believe still, in the 21st century, with our industrialized, standardized schools built to suit kids for jobs, in the joy of learning? This approach is counter-culture today indeed. Now, don't misunderstand. Learning is work; knowledge, like anything worthwhile, is earned. And clearly, an important job of our schools is to prepare kids for the jobs they'll have. In the midst of all the worksheets and testing, curiosity and problem-solving can be tough to quantify. Yet I believe, I insist, that an education that is not centered around powerful, resonant themes (my classroom's theme is telling your story) does not serve a democracy well. After all, what else are those critical basic skills for?--
Another Brick in the Wall
A conversation with a couple of colleagues, both of whom I like and respect, got me thinking yesterday about some of our most basic philosophical assumptions about education and why we do it. We're providing certain skills that we judge to be critical to getting on in the world--reading, writing, a understanding of how one's own government works, and so on. Kids need to get into college, because they need jobs that will actually allow them to support themselves and a family. In the specific context of the Detention Center, how and what we teach is revealing of what assumptions we make about these kids and where we think they're headed. Will they be teaching? Fixing cars? Checking people out at Target? Nurses? Doctors? Working in an office? Back in jail? Running an office? I don't think the role of curiosity, self-expression or problem solving in education can be overstated. This brings me back to the chat with my colleagues. One colleague and I were in agreement, it seems, that students can produce a variety of "products" to demonstrate a certain skill. In art, it might be a painting, or a sketch. It might, in English, be an essay, a journal entry, a skit, a thank you letter to a visiting speaker, or participation in a debate or discussion. These are all assignments my students have produced. Another colleague seemed to express that if a product wasn't "computational", it might be nice and fun, but was not necessarily actual learning. As I understand it, memorization as a means of building the capacity to concentrate and focus play a role in this classroom. These are necessary to learning, of course, but to my mind this beg the question of what one then does with the facts one has memorized or to what end one applies such focus. The argument went that life is full of unpleasant tasks and students need to learn to focus on them and do them anyway. The underlying assumptions here about what's worthwhile and what isn't fascinate me. Thought processes, by their nature, can't be 'seen'; when expressed they can be read or heard. Is loving a poem a "product" of a quality education? What about the kid who was in my class for a few weeks as we were reading The Diary of Anne Frank, the one who was released before we finished it? He returned to us a couple of weeks later and asked me if Anne and Peter had gotten together, and did she survive? Where's the role of inspiration in our classrooms, of excitement about a good book because it's a good book? Isn't that what being "life long learners" is about? Or do we view that as an extra, great for the kids who have passed their standardized tests but not a priority for kids with low skills who still struggle with the basics. I am, of course, arguing that creating that excitement is necessary to raising those basic skills. I believe human beings are hard-wired to want to learn. Every society has had art, music and stories to tell. Every single one, period. Do we believe still, in the 21st century, with our industrialized, standardized schools built to suit kids for jobs, in the joy of learning? This approach is counter-culture today indeed. Now, don't misunderstand. Learning is work; knowledge, like anything worthwhile, is earned. And clearly, an important job of our schools is to prepare kids for the jobs they'll have. In the midst of all the worksheets and testing, curiosity and problem-solving can be tough to quantify. Yet I believe, I insist, that an education that is not centered around powerful, resonant themes (my classroom's theme is telling your story) does not serve a democracy well. After all, what else are those critical basic skills for?--
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Rant for a moment
I really do like my job, but sometimes I'm completely flabbergasted that I have to deal with stupid things that people say. Not once, but twice today I had to deal with comments that related to the fact that I'm an art teacher.....as in "just an art teacher" "just for entertainment's sake" "just doodling".
Why is it that Visual Arts have to fight harder than other modes of art to get recognition of value? Why can't art stand on it own without being linked to another subject area or content? Why is art the redheaded-step-child of curriculum near and far, and is always the first to be cut and underfunded?
I don't know. Maybe because it's misunderstood? People have such negative feeling from being in art class as a child? I don't know. I have had some horrible art teachers. Ones that never actually "taught" any skills, ones who valued "beauty", ones who pushed you aside from the gifted or "natural" artists. Aren't we all natural artists in some way? Who's to place any value on any kind of art other than the person who made it?
Ok, I'm getting off topic. Here's the story. I'll try to be brief. The "music therapist/teacher" is finding it hard to be successful with his classes. He's asked me before if there was something going on with the students, how were they in my class, etc.. etc... etc... And today the topic came up again, except with a negative comment.
When I think of a person who is a music therapist I think of people who actively engage their clients in the making of music, mostly hands on and experimental, maybe even analyzing their works, don't you? Lyrics, sounds, being engaged, problemsolving, or in the act of music and what might be meaningful to them. And I think of a general music teacher who does some hands on and some skill building with techniques. And experimentation, and even some music history. Our music therapist doesn't really do any of that. From what I have seen and heard they do a lot of testing... As in taking written tests. They watch movies, and occasionally will do a unit of drumming (which they love). He doesn't teach them to be creative, he teaches them how to remember meaningless trivia... Yes, kids should be exposed to everything on all levels, but there are many ways you can do that. One is to actually listen to music, and pick out what you hear.
Anyway, the music teacher slighted me. OF ALL TEACHERS! Music and art teachers shouldn't ever be at odds with each other. I can't remember EXACTLY what he said, but it was to the effect that what I was doing wasn't nearly as significant as what he was doing.... Umm, and how's that working for him? Not at all. He can't relate to any of the kids. They get in trouble with him all the time (mostly because they're bored, don't care-- which I face too, by the way), and they're hardly doing anything that is active. If anything they are mostly inactive in his class.
So I tried to have a conversation with him to express that maybe he's having difficulty in his classes because the students need something more engaging, oh I don't know....like actually trying to play an instrument, or make up songs, or see what it's even like to correctly hold an instrument. Teaching the value of perseverance and practice. Not memorizing a music timeline, and learning how to divide notes when you aren't going to play them anyway.
It's frustrating, because at first I was trying to share with him the idea of the arts in general as creative outlets. Isn't that the point? Isn't that why any of us liked taking them as electives in the first place. It was a form of expression, an outpouring of emotion, an achievement to be part of a choir or band, or ensemble. I don't remember taking too many tests in my choir class.
He did apologize for the comment, but then made additional comments that he had two choices in the way he taught. He could teach them his way, or let them do whatever they want. So he totally missed the point of what I was saying... But whatever. I think he cares about kids a lot, but I think he needs to do something else, like be a researcher or something. He feels like he's teaching appropriately to reach these kids of kids, but he's not, and he's not willing to figure out any alternatives.
So I wash my hands of this. I'll just talk to him about the weather, and that will be that. I know what he said wasn't personal. It was a stupid comment on his part, but it still bothers me.
Why is it that Visual Arts have to fight harder than other modes of art to get recognition of value? Why can't art stand on it own without being linked to another subject area or content? Why is art the redheaded-step-child of curriculum near and far, and is always the first to be cut and underfunded?
I don't know. Maybe because it's misunderstood? People have such negative feeling from being in art class as a child? I don't know. I have had some horrible art teachers. Ones that never actually "taught" any skills, ones who valued "beauty", ones who pushed you aside from the gifted or "natural" artists. Aren't we all natural artists in some way? Who's to place any value on any kind of art other than the person who made it?
Ok, I'm getting off topic. Here's the story. I'll try to be brief. The "music therapist/teacher" is finding it hard to be successful with his classes. He's asked me before if there was something going on with the students, how were they in my class, etc.. etc... etc... And today the topic came up again, except with a negative comment.
When I think of a person who is a music therapist I think of people who actively engage their clients in the making of music, mostly hands on and experimental, maybe even analyzing their works, don't you? Lyrics, sounds, being engaged, problemsolving, or in the act of music and what might be meaningful to them. And I think of a general music teacher who does some hands on and some skill building with techniques. And experimentation, and even some music history. Our music therapist doesn't really do any of that. From what I have seen and heard they do a lot of testing... As in taking written tests. They watch movies, and occasionally will do a unit of drumming (which they love). He doesn't teach them to be creative, he teaches them how to remember meaningless trivia... Yes, kids should be exposed to everything on all levels, but there are many ways you can do that. One is to actually listen to music, and pick out what you hear.
Anyway, the music teacher slighted me. OF ALL TEACHERS! Music and art teachers shouldn't ever be at odds with each other. I can't remember EXACTLY what he said, but it was to the effect that what I was doing wasn't nearly as significant as what he was doing.... Umm, and how's that working for him? Not at all. He can't relate to any of the kids. They get in trouble with him all the time (mostly because they're bored, don't care-- which I face too, by the way), and they're hardly doing anything that is active. If anything they are mostly inactive in his class.
So I tried to have a conversation with him to express that maybe he's having difficulty in his classes because the students need something more engaging, oh I don't know....like actually trying to play an instrument, or make up songs, or see what it's even like to correctly hold an instrument. Teaching the value of perseverance and practice. Not memorizing a music timeline, and learning how to divide notes when you aren't going to play them anyway.
It's frustrating, because at first I was trying to share with him the idea of the arts in general as creative outlets. Isn't that the point? Isn't that why any of us liked taking them as electives in the first place. It was a form of expression, an outpouring of emotion, an achievement to be part of a choir or band, or ensemble. I don't remember taking too many tests in my choir class.
He did apologize for the comment, but then made additional comments that he had two choices in the way he taught. He could teach them his way, or let them do whatever they want. So he totally missed the point of what I was saying... But whatever. I think he cares about kids a lot, but I think he needs to do something else, like be a researcher or something. He feels like he's teaching appropriately to reach these kids of kids, but he's not, and he's not willing to figure out any alternatives.
So I wash my hands of this. I'll just talk to him about the weather, and that will be that. I know what he said wasn't personal. It was a stupid comment on his part, but it still bothers me.
Sunday, March 02, 2008
I must have a lot to add today
My student and his parentsWell, I'm behind in my blog. So it's time to catch up. Here are some pics from TODAY! My student recieved a scholarship award. It was great. He's really a quiet kid, and wasn't used to all this attention. And frankly, we did take way too many pictures. But for him it was a chance to see how important it all is. It's good that he has these chances to celebrate. To feel what it's like to be deserving of an award. Iwas so happy for him.
Me, My student, and some staff I work with.
"D" didn't have any work showing at this show. But next year he will. It was basically an opportunity for him to accept the scholarship. I hope he continues on with this. He's an awesome student, and he CAN draw (although he tells you he can't). He gets to work with a former cartoonist from Marvel or DC comics.... I'm so excited for him, and I know he is too! God, I love his sweatshirt!
W - A.S.H. -I.N.G.- T.O.N., Baby, D.C. - Part 2
Great view. You can see how far we walked!!! In between is the WW 2 memorial.
Jefferson Memorial, tidal basin....
Me. A student took this shot. And actually, some of the other pics were shot by this kid.
W-A.S.H.-I.N.G.-T.O.N. Baby, D.C.
Yeah, the Washington Monument... It's not that big. As demonstrated by a student, here.
My Awesome students, and a teacher.... oh yeah, and Lincoln ...way back there.
A lovely avenue.. It looks cold, but it warmed up. We loved the walk.
Washington's Monument. So high in the sky. Nothing can be built taller than this!
A view from the top. Towards the Capitol.
Even though I've lived in this area off and on, my entire life, I had never been to the top of the washington monument. You can no longer walk up the stairs. You HAVE to take the elevator.
Saturday, March 01, 2008
Sweet!
Do the weeks just tend to go by faster each year or what? I'm about 2 weeks away from spring break, and it's March! We even had an extra day in February yesterday, so what the heck?
Well, I'm just busy I tell you. Every time I turn around it seems like something is going on. I am busy working away and meeting community people about attempting to get some sort of community arts center. Or something. I don't know what it would be yet. But if this community is supposed to be so strong in the arts, how come we really don't have much to show for it?? Also working on a grant to put together an anthology. It's hard putting every idea you have in writing, but that is what you need to do to get the cash-money... So it's like having another job, that I don't get paid for.
And good for me, I'm back at the gym. Soon I'll be running outside again when it's a bit warmer, but this is good. I get to go use mini-gym. So it's free and usually empty. So it's like my own gym!
Nothing too new happening. One of my students is getting an award this week. He'll be getting a scholarship to take a class with the Art League. He's super excited. I'm excited for him. He gets to take a cartoon class with a former DC Comics artist! Now, that's sweet!
And..got to watch Benny and Joon. Love that movie!
Well, I'm just busy I tell you. Every time I turn around it seems like something is going on. I am busy working away and meeting community people about attempting to get some sort of community arts center. Or something. I don't know what it would be yet. But if this community is supposed to be so strong in the arts, how come we really don't have much to show for it?? Also working on a grant to put together an anthology. It's hard putting every idea you have in writing, but that is what you need to do to get the cash-money... So it's like having another job, that I don't get paid for.
And good for me, I'm back at the gym. Soon I'll be running outside again when it's a bit warmer, but this is good. I get to go use mini-gym. So it's free and usually empty. So it's like my own gym!
Nothing too new happening. One of my students is getting an award this week. He'll be getting a scholarship to take a class with the Art League. He's super excited. I'm excited for him. He gets to take a cartoon class with a former DC Comics artist! Now, that's sweet!
And..got to watch Benny and Joon. Love that movie!
Monday, February 18, 2008
Firsts
Voted in a primary
Earned a new nickname from my students: OG-Fitz (that's right I am totally straight up gangsta now)
Saw Jazz in KCMO
Dress and pants-- not a bad look!
Bought a conditioner to enhance the red in my hair!
Watched Blade Runner
Watched Last King Of Scotland
Went to a Euro-Indian Fusion restaurant in DC called "New Heights"-- so good
Celebrated heart-day! (well, obviously it wasn't the first time, but it was a good one)
Went up to the top of the Washington Monument (pictures coming soon)
Took my students (that's right MY students) to the National Portrait Gallery to see the new show about hiphop culture (EXCELLENT)
Bought a new matress (seriously, I needed one, my old bed was from 7th grade..no joke)
Ballet flats-- uber comfortable
Have officially been living in the same apartment for over a year---kind of a first
It's been a while since I've up-dated. And a lot has gone on. But I just thought I would point out some of the highlights. Time goes so fast, and I really need to just get back into the swing of things. I can't believe that it's the middle of February.
Some of the more important firsts is that I'm trying to put together an exhibition of my students' work in a local restaurant. Hopefully by the end of March everything will be figured out. I'm also going to try to put in print an anthology of student artwork and poetry. Even if this year it is only for them, hopefully it will be a starting point for bigger things.... Like a book, perhaps??? So this means grants... I've never written grants before, so that's a first. There's an interesting website out there, called "Donor's Choose". I'm going to start there, and then see where else money can come from. There just aren't enough hours in the day. Plus trying to complete my own paintings, and trying to figure out what my goals are as an artist.
But things are good. I can't complain at all! What I really could use is some more sun, and some of these 74 degree days! Of course, tomorrow it's supposed to be back to the chilly, windy weather. -sniff-
Oh well, pictures coming soon.....
Earned a new nickname from my students: OG-Fitz (that's right I am totally straight up gangsta now)
Saw Jazz in KCMO
Dress and pants-- not a bad look!
Bought a conditioner to enhance the red in my hair!
Watched Blade Runner
Watched Last King Of Scotland
Went to a Euro-Indian Fusion restaurant in DC called "New Heights"-- so good
Celebrated heart-day! (well, obviously it wasn't the first time, but it was a good one)
Went up to the top of the Washington Monument (pictures coming soon)
Took my students (that's right MY students) to the National Portrait Gallery to see the new show about hiphop culture (EXCELLENT)
Bought a new matress (seriously, I needed one, my old bed was from 7th grade..no joke)
Ballet flats-- uber comfortable
Have officially been living in the same apartment for over a year---kind of a first
It's been a while since I've up-dated. And a lot has gone on. But I just thought I would point out some of the highlights. Time goes so fast, and I really need to just get back into the swing of things. I can't believe that it's the middle of February.
Some of the more important firsts is that I'm trying to put together an exhibition of my students' work in a local restaurant. Hopefully by the end of March everything will be figured out. I'm also going to try to put in print an anthology of student artwork and poetry. Even if this year it is only for them, hopefully it will be a starting point for bigger things.... Like a book, perhaps??? So this means grants... I've never written grants before, so that's a first. There's an interesting website out there, called "Donor's Choose". I'm going to start there, and then see where else money can come from. There just aren't enough hours in the day. Plus trying to complete my own paintings, and trying to figure out what my goals are as an artist.
But things are good. I can't complain at all! What I really could use is some more sun, and some of these 74 degree days! Of course, tomorrow it's supposed to be back to the chilly, windy weather. -sniff-
Oh well, pictures coming soon.....
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
The Tuesday that was...
It was Super Tuesday and Mardi gras all in one day. How exciting! And what's more exciting is that next week I get to vote in a primary and for once it may actually count for something since it's close between Clinton and Obama. Usually by this time in most primary elections, it has been decided. Not this time (of course you probably know that I'm referring to the democratic primary....obviously). We even have a primary name... The Chesapeake Region Primary. I feel so very special. Now I just have to figure out where exactly it is that I vote. There seems to be a problem finding that out. I'm pretty sure I have to go where I did when I lived before, because that's the address I used when I registered.
For some reason I'm really into the election. I am ready for some shakeup. Enough is enough. I am worried that we'll have an upset, and in that case, I will probably be depressed for a very long time....like for 4 years.
So I'm voting for Obama...and you should too!
Headed for KC...the bitterly cold midwest to see my friends who misplaced themselves there. J is coming with me, and we're going to have some good times. Jazz, probably a casino in the mix, and a flights of wine and cheese at the wine bar. Let the good times roll!!! I can't wait for a little change, even though it is MO.
For some reason I'm really into the election. I am ready for some shakeup. Enough is enough. I am worried that we'll have an upset, and in that case, I will probably be depressed for a very long time....like for 4 years.
So I'm voting for Obama...and you should too!
Headed for KC...the bitterly cold midwest to see my friends who misplaced themselves there. J is coming with me, and we're going to have some good times. Jazz, probably a casino in the mix, and a flights of wine and cheese at the wine bar. Let the good times roll!!! I can't wait for a little change, even though it is MO.
Monday, February 04, 2008
I will go..several times
http://www.npg.si.edu/exhibit/recognize/visit.html
This look so awesome. I'm even going to try to get the upstairs unit to go, since they can leave! So excited for this!!
This look so awesome. I'm even going to try to get the upstairs unit to go, since they can leave! So excited for this!!
Friday, February 01, 2008
They got me! (don't worry no spoilers)
I can't help it. I watch "Lost" . And they didn't answer questions that have been plaguing my mind for months and months. They just keep giving me new ones to think about. I realize this is a tv show, but the fact that they are dragging this out for 3 more seasons at the rate of 8 episodes this season (8 will be missing this season because of the stupid writer's strike), then supposedly will "end" in two more seasons at 16 episodes a piece.
I don't think I have hope for the show. Especially since I've seen "Cloverfield". You know the movie that the "Lost" people made. At first I thought maybe they were trying to get other story lines out of their system... But the movie didn't have an ending. Which scares me. IF there is no end or final "wrapping it all up" kind of ending then I may very well travel to LA and kill the creators of the show.
I wasn't totally impressed by the first show of season four. I won't go into it, because I know some people who read this may not have seen it. I'll just say this----it's never going to end. EVER!
Ok, we'll, I'm sure I'll have something to say about it next week, so for that I bid you all adieu. Have a wonderful Friday! Mine will be full of cold rain. Ugh. If only it had been snow, I'd still be in bed. All cozy and warm.......
I don't think I have hope for the show. Especially since I've seen "Cloverfield". You know the movie that the "Lost" people made. At first I thought maybe they were trying to get other story lines out of their system... But the movie didn't have an ending. Which scares me. IF there is no end or final "wrapping it all up" kind of ending then I may very well travel to LA and kill the creators of the show.
I wasn't totally impressed by the first show of season four. I won't go into it, because I know some people who read this may not have seen it. I'll just say this----it's never going to end. EVER!
Ok, we'll, I'm sure I'll have something to say about it next week, so for that I bid you all adieu. Have a wonderful Friday! Mine will be full of cold rain. Ugh. If only it had been snow, I'd still be in bed. All cozy and warm.......
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
YES!
I went to a workshop on Wednesday, and today I got an e-mail from the director of the programs and they want to work with me to build my program at school! That's awesome! The National Gallery of Art!!! I'm so happy.
I have work to do this weekend though. I think she wants to donate materials, but also maybe some people to come in and talk to students, and maybe some presentations. I think it's a good idea, but I just have to think of things that would be relevant to them.....narrative art, storytelling, social commentary in art, graffiti, propaganda etc....
I've been going to these programs when I first moved here, and I guess regular attendance really helped me. They recognize me now, and want to give me a hand! I'll take it!
It's Friday!! TIME FOR CELEBRATION!
I've been wracking my brain to figure out things to do, and maybe things are falling into my lap a bit..... What's next?
I have work to do this weekend though. I think she wants to donate materials, but also maybe some people to come in and talk to students, and maybe some presentations. I think it's a good idea, but I just have to think of things that would be relevant to them.....narrative art, storytelling, social commentary in art, graffiti, propaganda etc....
I've been going to these programs when I first moved here, and I guess regular attendance really helped me. They recognize me now, and want to give me a hand! I'll take it!
It's Friday!! TIME FOR CELEBRATION!
I've been wracking my brain to figure out things to do, and maybe things are falling into my lap a bit..... What's next?
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Still on hold!
Yeah, they didn't correct it, and I only need to turn in my re- certification stuff next week. But, whatever.....
Anyway, weeks go by here so quickly I feel like I have hardly enough time to communicate with anyone these days. Plus I was dealing with a cold I've had since Christmas. Finally, I think it's going away. But my theory about colds is that we always have one, and it just fades away sometimes.
This week I got to go to a workshop at the NGA. At night! I love it. It's such a cool feeling being in rooms full of artwork at night. We spent time in the newer part of the museum, in the modern art section. Looking at a bunch of stuff. I always like going there. The program last night was kind of basic but I got some good reproductions, a book, and some much needed coffee...
The only thing that I have been forever neglecting that I feel terribly guilty about is a painting I've been working on since about November. It should be done by now. And I have only one more layer to finish. But it's a daunting layer. Filled with tiny script. I got myself into it, and I just need to finish it. I think J agrees.....
At school I'm dealing with some returning kids from last year. It's such a heart breaker. I mean I actually enjoy my students. For the most part they have really interesting personalities, and I can usually find something I like about them. Which is great. No one is ALL bad! But one came back with carvings all on his harm, obviously self-inflicted. He doesn't even want me to see it, although he could wear a sweatshirt if he wanted. And today he told me that someone cut that arm off. When clearly it is not missing. It's the strange facade that these kids wear everyday. Obviously this kid realizes that I want him to do better, and that I want him to be safe. I've been through so much with this kid. In the last two years. He obviously craves attention, but doesn't know what kind of attention. And he has been disheartened from the time he was born. Born in Vietnam, grew up in the streets there for about 6-7 years, was brought to America with his father (raging alcoholic) , learns to drink (just like his father), lives on the streets of Annandale. That's really all he knows. And I'm not kidding! Never ever has attended school regularly, has been in and out of the system, can't read, can't do simple math. Has no hope. It's almost impossible to get him to do anything. Although for me, he will do something. And I guess that's why I keep on trying. He's an addict, he's depressed, he has no family.
So what do we do with these kids? Why are they not able to get the support they need from the first moment they step into a facility like this? There are so many more like him. The story differs a little, but basically it happens all over.
I am ranting, I realize this, I went from talking about my transcripts, to a museum, to this. I'll stop. I'll go eat lunch. Some nourishment should un -cloud my brain a little bit.
Everyday at least one students asks me why I smile all the time, and I usually tell it's because I like my job. I do like every frustrating moment of it. It's challenging, it's interesting, and it changes day to day. And I also like to think I'm offering my students a little bit more than art. A little compassion, understanding, and acceptance.
Anyway, weeks go by here so quickly I feel like I have hardly enough time to communicate with anyone these days. Plus I was dealing with a cold I've had since Christmas. Finally, I think it's going away. But my theory about colds is that we always have one, and it just fades away sometimes.
This week I got to go to a workshop at the NGA. At night! I love it. It's such a cool feeling being in rooms full of artwork at night. We spent time in the newer part of the museum, in the modern art section. Looking at a bunch of stuff. I always like going there. The program last night was kind of basic but I got some good reproductions, a book, and some much needed coffee...
The only thing that I have been forever neglecting that I feel terribly guilty about is a painting I've been working on since about November. It should be done by now. And I have only one more layer to finish. But it's a daunting layer. Filled with tiny script. I got myself into it, and I just need to finish it. I think J agrees.....
At school I'm dealing with some returning kids from last year. It's such a heart breaker. I mean I actually enjoy my students. For the most part they have really interesting personalities, and I can usually find something I like about them. Which is great. No one is ALL bad! But one came back with carvings all on his harm, obviously self-inflicted. He doesn't even want me to see it, although he could wear a sweatshirt if he wanted. And today he told me that someone cut that arm off. When clearly it is not missing. It's the strange facade that these kids wear everyday. Obviously this kid realizes that I want him to do better, and that I want him to be safe. I've been through so much with this kid. In the last two years. He obviously craves attention, but doesn't know what kind of attention. And he has been disheartened from the time he was born. Born in Vietnam, grew up in the streets there for about 6-7 years, was brought to America with his father (raging alcoholic) , learns to drink (just like his father), lives on the streets of Annandale. That's really all he knows. And I'm not kidding! Never ever has attended school regularly, has been in and out of the system, can't read, can't do simple math. Has no hope. It's almost impossible to get him to do anything. Although for me, he will do something. And I guess that's why I keep on trying. He's an addict, he's depressed, he has no family.
So what do we do with these kids? Why are they not able to get the support they need from the first moment they step into a facility like this? There are so many more like him. The story differs a little, but basically it happens all over.
I am ranting, I realize this, I went from talking about my transcripts, to a museum, to this. I'll stop. I'll go eat lunch. Some nourishment should un -cloud my brain a little bit.
Everyday at least one students asks me why I smile all the time, and I usually tell it's because I like my job. I do like every frustrating moment of it. It's challenging, it's interesting, and it changes day to day. And I also like to think I'm offering my students a little bit more than art. A little compassion, understanding, and acceptance.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Winter in jail.
It's weird to see snow collect on barbed wire fences. It actually looks pretty. Like loops of yarn or something. The way the metal razors catch and hold the light and airy flakes. The mesh of the fence becomes opaque from the collection of snowflakes blanketing the surface. I lucky to have a room that has a wall of windows. And the kids loved watching the snow. And watching the snow does give us all a positive feeling. It's pure, it's light, free of almost any imperfection. Individual snowflakes that completely change a surface and cover dead limbs of trees, metal, wire, dark roads, holes, and sharp surfaces.We actually turned off the lights so we could let the white light just pour in the windows. It was nice. Serene. Easy feeling.
Fortunately I got to go home early. I was home by 1 pm today. The kids went to their rooms, and they'll probably will watch tv and not be able to look out any windows at all. I wish this "system" could change. They're kids caught up in a lot of dangerous webs. Some of them making simple mistakes, but others pretending to be adults, hardcore, tough, a menace to society. The "system" almost perpetuates it.
But only when something simple happens, like snow, does it make them realize that they're all growing up way too fast, and they can recall a day when things were much simpler.
So, I'm home and I realized the chai I'm having is kind of like this day. Warm, airy....frothy... I'll drink it, and feel my belly become full and warm. But, my cup will be empty, cold and used.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
There's a hold on your records because of the monks
Where to begin with this one. Back in 2003 (I think it was) I moved from Albuquerque to Alexandria. I was required to take a class to keep my teaching position (yeah, an art teacher is required to take a health class). So I took it (fortunately with my friends Amy and Ruth), and I was able to get 3 graduate credits. Well, in Virginia, a teacher also needs 180 points to maintain their professional license. And 3 credits is worth a 1/3 of that.
So, cut to now, where I finally need to update my certification. I have tons of points (I got points for being overseas, teaching in a summer program, and tons of other workshops). However, I need a transcript proving I took this"Family Life" course. I remember that George Mason University was who gave us credit. Fortunately, I knew I could just get it off line. No big deal.
WRONG!!!!! I open my account, and it says," You have a hold. To find out what the hold is press this button." So I press the button and it says that I have a library fee of $115, in Fairfax. Yes, I do go to the library, however, I've never set foot on the GMU campus in my life! How is this possible. So I call the library. They say yes, there is something under my name. But it was returned, and there are still late fees on it. I tell them this is impossible. What are the dates? June 2004!!! What?
I was getting ready to leave the country June 2004. But the librarian says," It looks like you returned it..oh...two years later. July 2006." Again, I say," There must be some mistake, what is the title of the book?" He says," It's Gregorian Chants." What?
He says there's nothing he can do because it's actually an inter library loan from Catholic American University in DC. What? I've never even been there! So this librarian guy, is actually being nice and helpful... gives me the number to the library.
I call CAU and she says that she needs to transfer me to the Music Library. I get transferred. Another woman picks up the phone. She hears my abbreviated story. She looks up my name. Turns out there is another person with my exact same name. Even the middle initial. So someone must have not really paid attention. The strangest thing is. I don't really understand how I am in their system at all, having never been there. But whatever. She was helpful too, and said she'd fix it right away and said that she'll just take it off my record.
So to end this long story. I'm hoping that it really isn't identity theft, and it really was a mistake. Hopefully I can get the darn transcript and be done with that University forever. Although, I won't be, because J works for them........and the saga will continue.
So, my friends...beware of the Library Shakedown!
Monday, January 14, 2008
Too long..
I haven't been writing in my blog a lot in these last few months. And I was thinking I had time as an excuse. Which really isn't true. It's just that I really haven't felt like it. I'm not really sure why. However, I am going to try to be more prudent. Although it may turn into political rants, and positions about public policy (because after all it is a huge election year).
But I hope to kind of turn this blog into more than just ramblings. I can't believe it's already Mid-January. Like many of you I've probably already broken a thousand promises to myself.
So I've been thinking a lot about going international again.... I think I do every year at this time. This is when teachers go to the recruitment fairs, and go to a million interviews to snatch a job you might like in a strange country.... It's a crap shoot,unless you do your research. While I do love traveling, it's just not the same as living and experiencing another culture first hand. And while I love where I live, and would like to stay here, there is something that is always calling me somewhere else. I think about those ideas, and I'm still trying to hatch a plan that will get me there.
Good thing "J" is open to these possibilities. He is doing a job search right now, and I already threatened him that if by June he doesn't find his "dream" job, then we should try to snatch up a last minute placement for the next school year in a foreign land.... Of course I think he just really wants to get a job in this area and stay (and most of me hope he does too).
But I hope to kind of turn this blog into more than just ramblings. I can't believe it's already Mid-January. Like many of you I've probably already broken a thousand promises to myself.
So I've been thinking a lot about going international again.... I think I do every year at this time. This is when teachers go to the recruitment fairs, and go to a million interviews to snatch a job you might like in a strange country.... It's a crap shoot,unless you do your research. While I do love traveling, it's just not the same as living and experiencing another culture first hand. And while I love where I live, and would like to stay here, there is something that is always calling me somewhere else. I think about those ideas, and I'm still trying to hatch a plan that will get me there.
Good thing "J" is open to these possibilities. He is doing a job search right now, and I already threatened him that if by June he doesn't find his "dream" job, then we should try to snatch up a last minute placement for the next school year in a foreign land.... Of course I think he just really wants to get a job in this area and stay (and most of me hope he does too).
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Survived!!
Happy New Year! Enjoy a lovely beverage!!!
No more smoking in Alexandria or France! Enjoy it at home people.
Ok, so we were the balloon rescuers. The people next to us were capturing them and using their lighters to pop them. Ruth and I managed to save at least a dozen and proceeded to release them in another location....away from the lame people.
Jarle, Me, Ewan and Ruth! Happy '08! I'm kind of glad that the holidays are over. There was a lot of rushing around, and not enough relaxing time. And it all got capped off by a flat tire first day back to school. ARGH! Merry Christmas, time to buy new tires. It was a good break though, filled with lots of family, other people's families, and friends. I spent a lot of time in the car, so it's no wonder my car greeted me that way this morning. Up to Gettysburg, down to Charlottesville and all around the beltway. Well worth the miles put on my car. Next year, beach vacation????
New Year's was a lot of fun, and I took dozens of random blurred pictures of the night time festivities. I can't believe it's 2008! Where does the time go? Forget resolutions, I never keep them anyway, so I guess I just vow to not be a slug. AND- to get out and use my new passport. I think I can keep those.
So happy new year everyone. It's going to be an interesting one, lots of politics, we'll elect a new president. Hopefully not Huckabee, because I'll have to leave the country if he does get elected (and oh are you going to pay attention tomorrow?-- it's all about Iowa). We'll watch tons of stuff happen, hopefully it won't be all bad....Although, are you watching the news? It's all doomsday. But anyway, there will be new songs, new tv shows, new movies, new haircuts, new foods, new ways to decorate. Life will go on...
I hope the holidays treated everyone well. Be thoughtful, creative people, give something back.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
One more day!
One more day of school and it's off for just over a week. Now, a week may sound a lot to some people, however, I am going to complain a bit. I'm tired, I need a break, we've had such a revolving door at work it's making my head spin. It's not that I don't like my job. I love it! In fact last year at this time I was so frustrated that I liked what I did, but couldn't bare the commute or the horrible administrator that took the joy out of everything. What a difference a year makes in all ways! So, not that I'm doing too much over break. I just plan on relaxing and reading, going to movies, visiting friends and family, and did I mention relaxing?
And... it's the cookie bake off. I'm really trying to get into the swing of things. Since I'll be going all over the place for the holidays, the least I can do is bring some tasty treats.
Argh, the only wrench in this whole relaxing plan is the pain in my arm. Some may remember that I attempted to play some softball over in Cairo... Well, I literally threw my arm out. And I'm paying for it now. Every time I move my arm to reach something, or brush my hair, or turn on my side when I'm trying to sleep, I hear creaking and cracking sounds... Like bone on bone. So lucky me, after the holidays I'll have to go have it looked at (again). It hasn't sounded this bad or felt this bad ever. And it's lasted for over 2 weeks. Ugh... It really feels agitated when I paint. I think I need to officially become ambidextrous. I only say it that way because I really did write with both hands long long ago... I know, just another factoid to show how strange I am.
Anyway, Happy Holidays to all!!
And... it's the cookie bake off. I'm really trying to get into the swing of things. Since I'll be going all over the place for the holidays, the least I can do is bring some tasty treats.
Argh, the only wrench in this whole relaxing plan is the pain in my arm. Some may remember that I attempted to play some softball over in Cairo... Well, I literally threw my arm out. And I'm paying for it now. Every time I move my arm to reach something, or brush my hair, or turn on my side when I'm trying to sleep, I hear creaking and cracking sounds... Like bone on bone. So lucky me, after the holidays I'll have to go have it looked at (again). It hasn't sounded this bad or felt this bad ever. And it's lasted for over 2 weeks. Ugh... It really feels agitated when I paint. I think I need to officially become ambidextrous. I only say it that way because I really did write with both hands long long ago... I know, just another factoid to show how strange I am.
Anyway, Happy Holidays to all!!
Monday, December 10, 2007
It's Christmas Time in the City...
This weekend was a fun one. Friday was chilly, and a little wet, but "J" and I headed into DC and went to "Olives", a really nice Italian restaurant downtown. It was good too. I had butternut squash tortellini with a delicious sage and brown butter sauce, with a nice feta salad. Then for desert we split a "fallen" chocolate cake.... Also had some really nice wine. So yummy, and my belly was full.
Saturday was non-stop craziness! Full of driving, parking, and crazy shopping all around downtown. I think I went all over the place in DC. I managed to find a few things, but "J" was the one on the prowl for presents. We had a hard time finding a parking spot, so we gave up and went into a parking garage, can you say ripped off? I hate parking in those things. He found some good presents for some of his friends and families. It's then that I realized I wasn't done shopping for everyone yet... so I have some work to do this week. Ugh. My dad is the toughest. And I realized I don't have he benefit of living anywhere exotic this year, so I really need to think. Last year I waited and and waited and came up with something lame for him. So I need to try really hard. And my sisters!! Don't even get me started... Honestly, they should just get coal.... hummm... now that's an idea.
Saturday night I invited R and E over to help decorate the tree. I'm so happy that I finally have my own tree. I unpacked all of my treasured ornaments. I had forgotten my mom had given me some of the pretty German ones we acquired while we were living there. It's starting to look pretty. It needs some tinsel though... Yes I come from a tinsel happy family. We very carefully put each strand on the tree as if to simulate the dripping of water falling down the tree's branches. It's almost like practicing some from of zen.
But here are some pics anyway.... in reverse order........
Me and J
Saturday was non-stop craziness! Full of driving, parking, and crazy shopping all around downtown. I think I went all over the place in DC. I managed to find a few things, but "J" was the one on the prowl for presents. We had a hard time finding a parking spot, so we gave up and went into a parking garage, can you say ripped off? I hate parking in those things. He found some good presents for some of his friends and families. It's then that I realized I wasn't done shopping for everyone yet... so I have some work to do this week. Ugh. My dad is the toughest. And I realized I don't have he benefit of living anywhere exotic this year, so I really need to think. Last year I waited and and waited and came up with something lame for him. So I need to try really hard. And my sisters!! Don't even get me started... Honestly, they should just get coal.... hummm... now that's an idea.
Saturday night I invited R and E over to help decorate the tree. I'm so happy that I finally have my own tree. I unpacked all of my treasured ornaments. I had forgotten my mom had given me some of the pretty German ones we acquired while we were living there. It's starting to look pretty. It needs some tinsel though... Yes I come from a tinsel happy family. We very carefully put each strand on the tree as if to simulate the dripping of water falling down the tree's branches. It's almost like practicing some from of zen.
But here are some pics anyway.... in reverse order........
Me and J
Thursday, December 06, 2007
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
Winter Wonderland
Wow, snow! Now, I know some of the people a little north of me got dumped on. But I have to say it was a little serene to watch the snow fall from inside the D-home. Most of the kids were super-chill today. All making for a cozy, warm feeling that echoed through the halls..... just kidding!
The kids did enjoy seeing the snow, however, it brought about constant disruption and what if's all day long. Except from the girls. They actually were super-chill, and are loving every second of my class.... Ahhhhhhhhhhhh, I love that class. There's 12 of them, which actually is a lot for the girls unit, but they love ART! YES! Finally! Some girls come in here so hard and so tough, they just keep up the attitude and appearance of being a "hater" , but really, once they're here, they warm up, they melt the ice away. If only they could feel so comfortable with themselves outside the d-home.. -sniff-
In other news. My upstairs students finally finished their sports drawings for the PE room. It was a long time coming, and they look AWESOME! They came out great. Unfortunately we can't hang them in a normal fashion, so I had to laminate them. NO glass allowed anywhere.
SAFETY FIRST!
In the mean time, I'm working really hard on a painting right now, but it's disastrous, I may just do it all over. So frustrated by everything about it. Color, composition...... SO I plan on working on it the rest of this week and next week. But then, I'm done. I think it's been in front of me too long.
The kids did enjoy seeing the snow, however, it brought about constant disruption and what if's all day long. Except from the girls. They actually were super-chill, and are loving every second of my class.... Ahhhhhhhhhhhh, I love that class. There's 12 of them, which actually is a lot for the girls unit, but they love ART! YES! Finally! Some girls come in here so hard and so tough, they just keep up the attitude and appearance of being a "hater" , but really, once they're here, they warm up, they melt the ice away. If only they could feel so comfortable with themselves outside the d-home.. -sniff-
In other news. My upstairs students finally finished their sports drawings for the PE room. It was a long time coming, and they look AWESOME! They came out great. Unfortunately we can't hang them in a normal fashion, so I had to laminate them. NO glass allowed anywhere.
SAFETY FIRST!
In the mean time, I'm working really hard on a painting right now, but it's disastrous, I may just do it all over. So frustrated by everything about it. Color, composition...... SO I plan on working on it the rest of this week and next week. But then, I'm done. I think it's been in front of me too long.
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