Thursday, May 06, 2010

It's a little hard

Yep, it's been weeks since I've written, mostly since I just don't seem to have the time. Wait, scratch that, I do have time. Everyone HAS time. BUT, it's hard to use it in a beneficial way.

Here's a typical day:
Wake up
feed the dog
fix the face and hair
make lunch
kiss the husband (who's still asleep)
pick up stuff
drive to work
prep for class
clean up
get in car
grocery store
drive home
check for mail
put groceries away
walk dog
think /waste time/take a cat nap (20 mins tops)
fix dinner
eat dinner
clean dishes

And then i do have free time from about 7 -10. But what do I want to do? I want to sit, veg out, watch tv, try to calm my brain.

What do i wish I could do? Oh, tons of things. Like find the energy to go for a run somewhere in there, or practice yoga, or paint.

Now I will admit that mostly while I am watching tv I'm working on wedding stuff. So that is something.

But this is what you would call a RUT. A serious bonafide rut. While I realize that most everyone's day is comsumed by a job, I also feel like I can't turn off my thoughts about my job.

How do you find balance in a busy day to day life? And how can you manage a weekend where you feel yourself content? I'm not quite sure. My weekends seem just as hectic, only I allow myself to sleep in.. I find myself doing the odds and ends that I wished I had the energy to accomplish during the week.

It all comes down to the feeling of being overwhelemd. It's been coming way to easy to feel that way lately. I don't know what it is exactly, but I guess that's why I have been ignoring the BLOG.

I feel like I should be doing something else. Except, I forgot. This silly blog sometimes helps me put things into perspective.

LIFE is GOOD. It really is. And while I feel like I am stuck in a hamster wheel sometimes, I know that at some point I'll be able to jump out of it. I have to remember the things that make me happy.. like being able to walk my dog. I love having my dog around, she loves walking with my husband and I. And i shouldn't take those kinds of moments for granted. They're good moments that make me feel like a person again, not a machine that is on auto pilot.

So- it is a little hard sometimes.

So on that note:

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